Friday, February 10, 2017

๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ˜‡Missing My SweetHearts and going through Hell๐Ÿ˜Š๐ŸŒบ๐Ÿ’๐ŸŒน::Vacation Edition:: ๐ŸŒน๐ŸŒบ๐ŸŒท๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿพ๐Ÿฅ‚๐Ÿ›ซ๐Ÿ–๐Ÿ๐Ÿ˜Ž

HELLO MY Beautiful and Handsome ANGELS ,SWEETHEARTS ,HONEYBUNNIES AND AWESOME FAMILY!๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿค—


Well Hello ๐Ÿ˜‡SexyAngels!๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ’ƒ๐Ÿ™‹ And Handsome Stud Muffins!๐Ÿ˜Ž๐Ÿคต๐Ÿ’ช
๐ŸŽˆ๐ŸŽ‰๐ŸŽŠ:: Passes some Gifts out for our Sweethearts ::๐ŸŽ ๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’๐ŸŒน๐Ÿพ๐Ÿฅ‚


I missed You So much! I am So Sorry about Yesterdays Letter not being written. I was very Tired
Yesterday and Took alot of naps after Our meetings we had all day yesterday. It was exhausting.๐Ÿ˜•
Anyways So Lets Catch Up Whats going on . So Right Now I have been going through meetings all week like I said I was .My Boss and I have been watching (The Office) Alot.  I have been wanting to play some Video Games but Haven't As I know it would mean I would be working and I am on vacation which means I need to relax not work.

As for Special Blogger Letters havent worked on them but been wanting too. I have also been dealing with My Ex-Fiancee VIA Phone over the past few days or so. Sometimes I forget I cant save everyone.Meaning I know he is in Trouble but that is his own fault he needs to fix his life that he destroyed. I cant help everyone. I can give advice but I cant help everyone. I aint no super hero.

I do Have Compassion for him but there is nothing I can do to help him. Hell I can't even help my ownself let alone another person. I am a very co-dependent person.I have 6 disorders with no medications at all. Cant Afford medical doctors or anything. My career is very difficult and my parents are still supporting me. My Boss Takes care of my traveling expenses and all other stuff where my parents do my rent and food. It takes an army to help me basically.

I am still mentally Fucked up from my kids being surrendered in court because of the predicaments that were at hand.I have not recovered at all from that. I am still going through a rough time. I got to get a steady income comming in and I am working hard on that so I can provide for myself.

My Life is Far from being Easy . Most people think I got it easy but I dont . I gotta figure how to become independent and how to make money before my parents are not around. My Mom hopes I find someone to be with . To be honest I am right along side of her with that one. I hope so too because I dont know if I will ever be independent. I am trying to be independent with my career at Youtube and other places. but it isn't easy eaither. Right now I am on vacation trying to relax but with all this drama going on it is hard to relax (meaning the ex fiancee situation).

I do care for all my ex's and I dont want nothing bad to happen to any of them but they gotta learn that I can't help them. I have always been a co-dependent person. They all knew that when they met me. I have always had someone financially taken care of me.So you can only imagine how scared I am and how stressed out I am when I am not maken any money from any of my videos on Youtube.

Everyone who has ever met me knows that I have not ever been independent and I am okay with saying that because I dont feel ashamed of it . Not everyone can be independent and that is okay.
Some people are meant to be independent and others are not. Thats my opinion.

I am no where close to my threshold on Youtube .Everyone Who is A Youtube partner has a threshold they have to meet to get paid from Youtube. its complicated to explain .

As Everyone Knows maken a living from Youtube is nearly impossible But I believe in myself and My talent. I believe as long as you believe in yourself you can do anything you put your mind too.I am preparing to make a patron Account. I dont know when though as I have to think about how to go about doing it. You know the rewards and all . I really gotta think about it.

 So besides ALL that drama and so on ... you know there is not ever a dull day in my life. No offence Like I said there wont ever be a drama free situation in Life. BECAUSE LIFE doesnt work that way.

To be honest in my family if everything is going well we all get uneasy about it because we all know to well in our family if it is way too easy then something bad will happen. Which 99.9% of the time something always happends. So this comes natural in my family. There is not ever one day without excitement or something going on.

It's probley Another reason why alot of people can't handle me or my family is because this is how our family runs. But who cares if someone can't accept all of me and everything about me then there worthless and don't need to be apart of my life. Point blank and Plain English. My Family is Dysfunctional and I dont mind it at all. To be honest I Am more happier this way then above all others. I know I have it rough time and all but maybe this is the way my life is gonna be.

Maybe I was meant to have this life so I can help others not have what I have. ๐Ÿค”or maybe how to cope with it? I dont know really.Alls I know is I do love helping others if I can although my life is so upside down.

All's I know as Soon as my Ex-Fiancee got out of Jail I knew I was gonna have drama and I was right about it. OfCourse My Boss is right beside me holden my hand through all this. Which I am glad I got at least my Boss through this whole mess. Plus I am glad I am on vacation so I can rest and not be all stressed out. My executive meetings are less stressful then my ex-fiancee situation.  My-Ex Fiancee seems to give me more stress and anxiety  then anything else. Plus with valentines day around the corner it isn't helping my attitude any better since I AM SINGLE STILL!!! ๐Ÿ˜’๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ˜ž

Fuck my life gawd darn it all!๐Ÿ™„ So I am under alot of stress. ๐Ÿ˜’I am sure though Things will get better I hope.๐Ÿค” I have had rough patchs before . ๐Ÿค”I am sure Things will get better I hope.๐Ÿ˜

At this rate I hope things get better been through to much hell as it is. Anyways enough of me bitching ,moaning and complaining about things. At least I admit that I am bitching ,moaning and complaining. Not to many people would admit that. But I AM because I know I am doing it.

Not to mention I haven't been sleeping so well lately. I have been tired alot and Sleeping alot. But I havent been feeling really secure lately. When I Watch {The Office} With my boss ... I think of Michael Scott is someone Just like me in certain ways. You know the side of him that always wants to be loved and wanting to be important . Or the part of looken like an authority figure and such. I do relate to him on certain levels. Samething with Pam and also other characters on the show.

Anyways I Will Write You Another letter soon Again. ๐Ÿ˜Š
Gonna try to take a nap. I woke up at 4am today and have been up since then. Like I said I got a weird sleeping pattern latly and I am hopeing by the time my vacation is up That I got it under control a little bit by then. Feb 28th is Suppose to be when I come back. But I am gonna Return March 1st,2017 instead.

But Everyday or Every Other day I will be writing you letters and letten you know whats going on .
I do know for a fact we got More meetings and Executives meetings. Plus I know That I do got photoshoots comming up again.๐Ÿ™„ and here we go with makeup๐Ÿ’„ and so on again.

I Will Admit I am upset with myself for last month and this month not haven no New Thumbnails.But thats okay.there is always next month for that. I always make it up to you Sweethearts๐Ÿ’ž and you know that. I am just haven a rough last few months. I am sure things
Will get better. One thing is when I am stressed out or Upset it doesnt work well for me because
3 things happen . first thing it effects my work. Second thing that happends when I get stressed out I dont wanna work and then the third thing is I just wanna hide from everything. Which I do.

Which all of those is not a good thing. So in away this Vacation will hopefully help me relax more. which it has . Like I said before the meetings are not so stressfull at all.its only the Ex part that is the stressful part.

I know Everything is off schedule and I am sorry for that but Right now my life is upside down as well with the crap I gotta deal with (meaning my Ex's Situation). It maybe all on the phone. but just because I am dealing with it over the phone it still effects me.I still do care what happends to all my ex's. I aint a heartless bitch.

I do care about everyone. Thats one thing that always gets me into trouble is because I got a heart of gold.๐Ÿ’› I always take care of others before myself. Its one thing my mom taught me. My mom is a very caring and Loven person. Thats one trait I got of my moms. Which I am proud to say I have.

Its probley the 1 thing that gets both(my mom and I ) of us hurt alot too. ya know the whole Haven a heart of gold ๐Ÿ’› thing.  But Atleast we both (my mom and I ) Can say that we care alot to help others And try our best to help others the best we can even in the worst situations.

But Anyways I am gonna go Watch {The Office} With my boss. I might end up fallen asleep Like I Have before. So I just wanted to alert you to that ahead of time. Everything should Return back to Normal soon with our wake up and sleepy time Announcements.It maybe be awhile but they will be back to normal soon. Just hang in there . I am haven it rough just like you with that situation. Kinda mad at myself for going off on that schedule. but in time it will be fixed.

I Love You Sweehearts.๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’Ÿ๐Ÿ’Œ๐Ÿ’
I Miss you Sweet Angels of mine Alot๐Ÿ˜‡. 
I Will Write to you Again Tomorrow . I Love You Family. Thank you for sticking by me even in my roughest times. it means alot to me. I am really going through alot of hell. Once again thank you for being apart of our family I really am thankful for each and everyone of you.๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹

My World Maybe Broken Right now But haven you sweethearts๐Ÿ’žApart of my family helps me get through my days besides my Boss's. Our Family Working AS A UNIT is what keeps our family together and Stronger then ever. I Love You Family.๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’Ÿ๐Ÿ’Œ๐Ÿ’๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ˜‡๐Ÿ˜Ž


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