Sunday, February 19, 2017

๐Ÿ˜Š๐ŸŒบ๐Ÿ’๐ŸŒนCould My Wish's be happening without me knowing? And Updates::Vacation Edition:: ๐ŸŒน๐ŸŒบ๐ŸŒท๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿพ๐Ÿฅ‚๐Ÿ›ซ๐Ÿ–๐Ÿ๐Ÿ˜Ž

HELLO MY Beautiful and Handsome ANGELS ,SWEETHEARTS ,HONEYBUNNIES AND AWESOME FAMILY!๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿค—

Well Hello ๐Ÿ˜‡Sweet Angels Of Mine!๐Ÿ˜‡


Time For another Update.๐Ÿ˜• I know sorry for being so informal with this letter today. ๐Ÿค”So from what I know so far is that there is no update on the situation .I have been packing Just Incase . I wanna be prepared .I Will Get this straighten out and it will fix and I will save my home.I will not be moving because I will fix all things and I will save my home. I am very well determined to save my home . I am not gonna lose my home over this Stupidity.

I will Admit I am scared and all. But I gotta keep going I can't let fear detour me and make me paralyze. I will fight the fear and I will win. I have things all set to go and everything Origanize Just incase for both situations. I learned so much from the last time's I had an emergency Situation's where I had to be preparred ( When I lost my apartment and also the hurricane Matthew Situation ). The Hurricane Matthew situation i was unprepared and was hoping that storm would pass but it didnt and put me in Fear.

I remember being paralyze in fear crying because I didnt want to lose more things since I lost everything I already had. I remember the thoughts that went through my head. I kept thinking I Already lost everything in my life I dont have much more I can lose Except my life.But I was hell bent That I wasn't gonna lose my life for anything. I wanted to Live and I still do. I have alot to live for.

At Those Dire Moments I remember I felt like the whole world was againest me since birth. I mean I was dead at birth for a few minutes after being straggled by my umbilical cord. I had complications when I was being born.Since day 1 of being alive I have had The Grim Reaper always at least 1 step behind me waiting for his turn. I haven't had an easy life but I Keep on fighten and I keep going.

Anyways Back to what I was saying. Ofcourse I remember talken to my mom on the phone and panicking and she talked me through packing . I remember telling my mom That," I couldnt do this anymore I can't keep losing things but I know I gotta pack and leave." In which my mom replyed you'll be fine your things can be replaced but your life can't be."I told my mom I wanted to live I was just scared and Was tired of being hurt and losing things all the time. I just wanted to be happy and stable. My mom told me " You Will be fine and to strap my boots up and start packing." In Which I did.

I know I get in moments of panic and all but if i have learned any was to take fear and accept it into my heart and let it become apart of me. I know it sounds weird I learned that if you accept fear that it will lead you to numbness where you wont feel it as much or be scared. No offence but dont follow me on that one it isn't good and I dont recommend it. I  Know that is hypocritical But I am stronger then most and I can handle it.  I dont need anyone to try to do what I do . I am unique and I have been through more hell then others and seen things that I shouldn't have when I Was a kid.

But Because I went through hell and been back and forth from it I have learned things to help others stay away from it. I am not no super hero I am just me. I can handle certain things that most can't . I am pretty sure I learned it from my dysfunctional family or the bad situations I have been through (aka Experiences ). I still Love my family though. Dysfunctional or not my family still loves me at the end of the day although we do say hateful words to one another at times in anger.

Which I dont recommend because it causes long term mental damages to your relationships with your family and it is hard to come back from. my family is already dysfunctional there is no helping in that. you can only change yourself not them. thats a tip to people who have similar issues like me.

Best Thing I can say is to be yourself and do what you want in your life ( not the expectations of others) Do what makes you happy ( As long as it is safe and doesn't do harm to yourself or others).
I hope that helps ya.

Anyways I just hope the officers๐Ÿ‘ฎ help me with this situation. I know for one thing if my ex fiancee doesnt Fix this issue I am gonna talk to๐Ÿš”๐Ÿš“๐Ÿ‘ฎ law enforcement myself and get help. I just wannabe safe and secure and right now with this going on it makes me feel unsafe and unsecure.

I know for one thing I am SO TIRED Of my Ex's Bringing Drama my way. I Just Hope this can all be fixed. Like I said yesterday or the day before I just want my Tommy (Blogger Series) who will protect me from all this nonsense. There are times I wish I would marry an officer. I think I would feel more safer.

I know by now you are like Alexia Shut up about Tommy. Well I am sorry but I am not sorry because I just want someone like him so ๐Ÿ˜œ. I know for a fact if I ever met a guy like Tommy ,Ken ,or Jimmy I would be able to open up more and feel more comfortable about who I am.

Yes I know I said awhile ago about being yourself and be proud of who you are?.... I forgot what I said and that was like I dont know how many paragraphs ago but I also dont feel like looken up at it . lol๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿ˜† Well that helps to laugh breaks me out of the panic phase. I Just dont wanna laugh to much or smile to much or I might get wrinkles . LOL ROFL ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿ˜†๐Ÿ˜†๐Ÿ˜†๐Ÿ˜†๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿ˜…

Believe me I have seen it I smile to much or laugh to much It looks like a .... hmmm... I dont know how to explain it but you can see the smile marks.  After That Happends I have to make sure I dont smile or laugh which helps. then the smile marks go away and my face is flawless again.

I know how vain .... dadadadada ... blah blah... lol rofl ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ˜œ๐Ÿ˜‹๐Ÿ˜‡

Anyways besides all that I Think it is so weird how all of a sudden that ... I dont know . Sometimes I wonder if officers do watch certain videos of mine. For instance like these videos I did in the past and there playlist's -->


Here are the Playlists:

  DancingSouless | Enforcer Police Crime Action Lets Plays
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLLf0ZYy6OBknUfmghFOBKhbBP9Q6YNOP2


DancingSouless | Strange Cases - The Faces of Vengeance Let's Play
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLLf0ZYy6OBkkPeej-Qiemi9qEmgcWZm3o


DancingSouless | 9 Clues - The Ward  Let's Play
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLLf0ZYy6OBklS9zzKH485Z7wmdLu8VRYK


And Here are The First Episodes of each one of them: -->


           Enforcer EP 1 Why I Shouldn't be an Officer | Enforcer Police Crime Action




Let's Play A Game Ep 1 | Strange Cases - The Faces of Vengeance



Hostile Asylum | 9 Clues - The Ward



So those are the first Episodes of the Series and so on. Yes I know you are probley like what?!No way?! You Play video games? Yes I do to Answer your questions Just haven't in a while because I have been focusing on other projects. I do plan on go back to playen game plays and all. Just not sure as to when Since I got alot of other things to finish. I do Play consoles games and all too.Its Just I lost my consoles along time ago when I lost my apartment so I havent been able to get new ones and I cant afford to eaither. So for now I just play steam games, Big Fish games , Game house games and ALL PC Related games.  So for now... All I got is pc games and I am happy with what I got.

I can wait for the other awesome games and consoles. One day I will have everything I lost back but until then I gotta focus on what I do have and not what I dont got. I gotta keep looken forward and pressing forward. it is hard sometimes I will admit to look forward but I keep on going.

Anyways This Last month since I have been on vacation and all and this Scary Situation has got me scared I began to play some video games to keep me calm. Which does help. So I am probley gonna do so lets plays while all this crazyiness is going on. I hope things will be fixed by tomorrow. It should be as I am gonna be get it fix this nutter Situation. I will Keep you posted.

Just hang in there and hang tight as we are on another rollercoaster and I havent a clue as to what is going to happen but what I do know is I aint given up and I will get it fixed. I aint no Peon Iam a strong person. Who even in bad situations can still organize and still get things done even under pressure. Plus for some  damn reason now i know how to pack quick too. *shakes head* I dont like knowing that I can do that. It does scare me because It makes me think That I am adjusted to all this kind of shit. I dont like that at all. When I say like in this context it means I hate it . 

I know I am confusing but this is who I am. My words can mean alot of things. So this is the reason why I explain myself alot besides that my parents taught me to explain myself immediately for everything I do. My Parents Are complicated which since I was raised by them and others makes me complicated I assume?? Who knows I Just know what I know.

my parents do the samething. they taught me how to be this way. I dont like it sometimes because it just makes others confused. but I have adapted to that style . 

Yes I Was raised by others. I wasn't just raised by my parents although they would like you to think so.*raises one eyebrow*๐Ÿค”

๐Ÿค”I wonder..... If I Ever meet my one True Love๐Ÿ’– if they would go to counseling with me so I could help them understand me with the help ofcourse my counselor .  I think it would be a good idea. Plus it may help a bit since I can be difficult. 

I think I just setted another goal for me in my life. YAY!!!!๐Ÿ˜€

first goal is to have counsling for myself ( because I do need it .not ashamed to admit it).

Second goal if I ever meet my True Love we could go to couples counseling so it would help our Relationship and also help me be able to open up to my partner with some help of a professional.

I already got a counselor in mind . I wanna go back to the counselor I use to use as she did help me alot and so did the other woman who did the couples therapy awhile aback. there both useful. Well At least I got some tiny goals.

The funny part๐Ÿค“ is I DONT GOT A RELATIONSHIP๐Ÿ’” so there for Number 2 goal doesnt exist yet. LOL ROFL๐Ÿ˜†๐Ÿคฃ As for my counseling it can wait. since 1 I can't afford it and 2 I have other issues to deal with first before I can even think about it. So ....๐Ÿค”... Well Atleast it is something to think about. so whatever ๐Ÿคท๐Ÿ’ There is Really nothing I can do right now except chill and relax and deal with my issues as they come. Taken one ......grrrrrr I hate that saying! " One day at a time " boy do I ever hate that saying but it is true only on certain things...๐Ÿค”


Anyways I am gonna try to go and relax As I have done everything I can do for right now on that damn nutter situation. I am still scared but I am not gonna think about it as I can fix it. I know I can I just gotta relax and know Everything will be okay. Although My Brain is like HELL NO it is not okay as we still havent fixed the issue and then I am like I gotta relax because If I dont I will worry myself sick and I dont need that. SO To help myself Relax I am gonna play some video games to calm my nerves.


I will Keep you sweethearts posted. Sometimes I wonder if all my wishs are comming true. AND NO I DIDNT WISH FOR THIS CRAZYNESS TO HAPPEN. LOL ROFL. ๐Ÿ˜†๐Ÿคฃ What I mean is I wonder if my wishs I have been wishing for are comming true.... I cant tell you what there are eaither because then they wouldn't come true. but I am curious if they are comming true. 

Who knows maybe my dreams and wishs will come true and if they do awesome and if they dont well All i got is myself then.๐Ÿค” I dont know what to think when it comes to that part. lol rofl๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿ˜†
Even I Annoy Myself sometimes. lol rofl. ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿ˜†I think that happends to most of us. *giggles*


Anyways๐Ÿ’žI Love you๐Ÿ’– and I am glad you Sweethearts ๐Ÿ’žAre here beside me through this whole mess. I am so glad to have you Angels.๐Ÿ˜‡

I miss you alot and I Love You Alot. I will see you Sweethearts In our next Letter.๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’Ÿ๐Ÿ’Œ๐Ÿ’


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