Well Hello 😇Sweet Angels Of Mine!😇
Time For another Update.😕 I know sorry for being so informal with this letter today. 🤔So from what I know so far is that there is no update on the situation .I have been packing Just Incase . I wanna be prepared .I Will Get this straighten out and it will fix and I will save my home.I will not be moving because I will fix all things and I will save my home. I am very well determined to save my home . I am not gonna lose my home over this Stupidity.
I will Admit I am scared and all. But I gotta keep going I can't let fear detour me and make me paralyze. I will fight the fear and I will win. I have things all set to go and everything Origanize Just incase for both situations. I learned so much from the last time's I had an emergency Situation's where I had to be preparred ( When I lost my apartment and also the hurricane Matthew Situation ). The Hurricane Matthew situation i was unprepared and was hoping that storm would pass but it didnt and put me in Fear.
I remember being paralyze in fear crying because I didnt want to lose more things since I lost everything I already had. I remember the thoughts that went through my head. I kept thinking I Already lost everything in my life I dont have much more I can lose Except my life.But I was hell bent That I wasn't gonna lose my life for anything. I wanted to Live and I still do. I have alot to live for.
At Those Dire Moments I remember I felt like the whole world was againest me since birth. I mean I was dead at birth for a few minutes after being straggled by my umbilical cord. I had complications when I was being born.Since day 1 of being alive I have had The Grim Reaper always at least 1 step behind me waiting for his turn. I haven't had an easy life but I Keep on fighten and I keep going.
Anyways Back to what I was saying. Ofcourse I remember talken to my mom on the phone and panicking and she talked me through packing . I remember telling my mom That," I couldnt do this anymore I can't keep losing things but I know I gotta pack and leave." In which my mom replyed you'll be fine your things can be replaced but your life can't be."I told my mom I wanted to live I was just scared and Was tired of being hurt and losing things all the time. I just wanted to be happy and stable. My mom told me " You Will be fine and to strap my boots up and start packing." In Which I did.
I know I get in moments of panic and all but if i have learned any was to take fear and accept it into my heart and let it become apart of me. I know it sounds weird I learned that if you accept fear that it will lead you to numbness where you wont feel it as much or be scared. No offence but dont follow me on that one it isn't good and I dont recommend it. I Know that is hypocritical But I am stronger then most and I can handle it. I dont need anyone to try to do what I do . I am unique and I have been through more hell then others and seen things that I shouldn't have when I Was a kid.
But Because I went through hell and been back and forth from it I have learned things to help others stay away from it. I am not no super hero I am just me. I can handle certain things that most can't . I am pretty sure I learned it from my dysfunctional family or the bad situations I have been through (aka Experiences ). I still Love my family though. Dysfunctional or not my family still loves me at the end of the day although we do say hateful words to one another at times in anger.
Which I dont recommend because it causes long term mental damages to your relationships with your family and it is hard to come back from. my family is already dysfunctional there is no helping in that. you can only change yourself not them. thats a tip to people who have similar issues like me.
Best Thing I can say is to be yourself and do what you want in your life ( not the expectations of others) Do what makes you happy ( As long as it is safe and doesn't do harm to yourself or others).
I hope that helps ya.
Anyways I just hope the officers👮 help me with this situation. I know for one thing if my ex fiancee doesnt Fix this issue I am gonna talk to🚔🚓👮 law enforcement myself and get help. I just wannabe safe and secure and right now with this going on it makes me feel unsafe and unsecure.
I know for one thing I am SO TIRED Of my Ex's Bringing Drama my way. I Just Hope this can all be fixed. Like I said yesterday or the day before I just want my Tommy (Blogger Series) who will protect me from all this nonsense. There are times I wish I would marry an officer. I think I would feel more safer.
I know by now you are like Alexia Shut up about Tommy. Well I am sorry but I am not sorry because I just want someone like him so 😜. I know for a fact if I ever met a guy like Tommy ,Ken ,or Jimmy I would be able to open up more and feel more comfortable about who I am.
Yes I know I said awhile ago about being yourself and be proud of who you are?.... I forgot what I said and that was like I dont know how many paragraphs ago but I also dont feel like looken up at it . lol🤣😆 Well that helps to laugh breaks me out of the panic phase. I Just dont wanna laugh to much or smile to much or I might get wrinkles . LOL ROFL 🤣🤣🤣🤣😆😆😆😆😅😅
Believe me I have seen it I smile to much or laugh to much It looks like a .... hmmm... I dont know how to explain it but you can see the smile marks. After That Happends I have to make sure I dont smile or laugh which helps. then the smile marks go away and my face is flawless again.
I know how vain .... dadadadada ... blah blah... lol rofl 🤣😅😉😊😜😋😇
Anyways besides all that I Think it is so weird how all of a sudden that ... I dont know . Sometimes I wonder if officers do watch certain videos of mine. For instance like these videos I did in the past and there playlist's -->
Here are the Playlists:
DancingSouless | Enforcer Police Crime Action Lets Plays
DancingSouless | Strange Cases - The Faces of Vengeance Let's Play
DancingSouless | 9 Clues - The Ward Let's Play
And Here are The First Episodes of each one of them: -->
Enforcer EP 1 Why I Shouldn't be an Officer | Enforcer Police Crime Action
Let's Play A Game Ep 1 | Strange Cases - The Faces of Vengeance