Thursday, June 15, 2017

๐Ÿ˜ŠLike I Promised Explanations ,Updates, and me being nervous๐Ÿ™„ ( I didnt promise to be nervous but i am now)

Hello Sweethearts!๐Ÿ’ž I Love You And I Miss You A while Bunch!๐Ÿ˜„
*Huggies*๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—& *Kisses*๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’‹
 For My ๐Ÿ‡๐Ÿ‡๐Ÿ‡HoneyBunnies๐Ÿ‡๐Ÿ‡๐Ÿ‡๐Ÿ˜‰

Just to let everyone Know I didnt know I was gonna be nervous Writing this but I was and I am sorry but I am just a cute๐Ÿ˜Š peanutbutters๐Ÿ‘ถ so๐Ÿ˜œ. Deal with it๐Ÿ˜Ž

They say there is not ever the right time but I think some of this needs to be discussed now. so here is alot of reading and I hope you are able to read it all. ( meaning somethings I have been thinking about) its after the explanation with Fabulous - Angela's High School Reunion Platinum Edition.
its about feelings and so on about guys... *blushes beat red and hides face* thats it now you gotta read it all. so good luck and try not to make me blush if you can. ๐Ÿค”

Alright So this has what has been going on lately with
Fabulous - Angela's High School Reunion Platinum Edition

We have been having some issues with Glitchs at full screen and in Ep.6 Major Glitch
I called it that because that is the episode that had the huge glitch in which everyone will see when it is released. I wanna show ya exactly the headach i have been going through with this game .But before I release that episode I got a VLOG i wanna release before it as it will explain what all happend in the glitch and so on. I talk about alot of things in the vlog but I do cover the topic about the glitch and how to treat the video when you see it.

As for the question If I am gonna continue to play the game I really want to because I wanna know what happends but at the sametime I am aggravated with it as I would have to small size the window to record it .Which is also hard for me as I wear glasses and well you can guess why... So It would be a little difficult to play the game at small size even with my glasses. When you miniumize the window they shrink it down to 960x640 Which is way smaller then normal full size. I mean COME ON GAME DEVELOPERS Seriously?!

Hearts Medicine ( all of there games )I could play it on Windows 10 and have it full screen with NO ISSUES AT ALL. Which tells me that the people who created Fabulous - Angela's High School Reunion Platinum Edition need to work more on there games. I hope there next game is fixed and not so buggy.

Anyways I dont really know If I am gonna continue to play it or not as it does agitate me quite a bit. But I will let you know If I do or not. But until then watch the videos and enjoy them and also just to let VIDME KNOW Fabulous - Angela's High School Reunion Platinum Edition will all be set to free to watch mainly due to ( because of the change of the Donations per month ) I know I promised it wouldnt change it for a while but then when I realized I was still strugging at $4 dollars amonth I uppt it because ( VIDME ) does take a percentage of your subscriptions per month. So I had to upgrade the Donations per month so i could survive.

So because of the Donations going up in monthly I decided to put Fabulous - Angela's High School Reunion Platinum Edition Free for everyone to watch so it would justify what I did. It was the only fair thing to do. Now If this series Fabulous - Angela's High School Reunion Platinum Edition Does fall ( Basically gets cancelled because of the Glitch) then you will without a doubt get the next series free ( it will be justified eaither way).

Now Since all that is cleared And Clarified Anyone who has questions Just let me know .

Besides all that We had to update our computer so that is why we had to re-uploaded Ep.4 Stroking Ego's And Janet Morgan | Fabulous - Angela's High School Reunion Platinum Edition. Usually when as many glitchs like this happen we always try to figure what the hell is going on. We always check out Bandicam to see if it needs another update and then if thats not the issues then we check our computer updates Now if both of those are fine then most likly it comes down to the game itself (being the issue).

So we do go into extensive testing to make sure everything is okay before We decided if we discontinue the lets play or not. Now As it stands and Like I said I am in a complicated situation . I know i said different earlier but what people dont know right now is I am working on a couple of protects right now. With Vlogs , Game Developing ( now you know why i am more frustrated then most times) Modeling , working on stuff in Second life and Casting people for our Blogger Series Show ( still) I am doing one in REAL LIFE and IN Second Life . We want it in both worlds . As it would be neat and I love the idea.

Not only that I gotta prepare myself for it as well as most know ..... I havent ... ๐Ÿ™„.... *blushes deep red* Been with a guy in over 4 years. so to be even near a guy gets me a nervous Wreck. I have no issues talken to them or anything else it is just when it comes to *blushes redder* we will just not talk about it now. I told you guys you would learn more as we go along.

Something tells me we are gonna need a counselor on set all together because when it comes to kissing scenes or others things I think my 2 feet are gonna be ready to run out the door. Its like I said FEAR plays a big role in my life and FEAR is not nice to me at all.

Just for me to talk about this gets me nervous and makes me want to erase it and just hide it and not let anyone know because I feel like a fool to admit I actually might ....๐Ÿคฆ*covers face* may want to know what it is like to genuinely be treated good by a guy.

Or to actually see if a guy actually treated me good if i would be able to be with them ( in a relationship way) There are alot of questions I think about once in awhile ( but to be honest with all of you I think about it when I go to bed .

meaning what it would be like to be held in a guys arms and just fall asleep just listening to there heartbeat๐Ÿ’– and safe in there arms๐Ÿคต. Or what it would be like just to cuddle and watch a ๐ŸŽฌmovie๐ŸŽฆ with them๐Ÿ‘ซ . To get to know them to see if I would be able to walk around in public while ๐Ÿ‘ซholden there hand๐Ÿค or if I wouldnt like it at all๐Ÿ˜Ÿ . To be honest I Know these questions has to be answered at least in my mind๐Ÿ™Ž it does.

๐Ÿ˜’I hate wondering about it๐Ÿ˜Ÿ. I wanna know if my feelings๐Ÿ˜ฃ are only based on loneliness๐Ÿ™„ or if There actually feelings that are real๐Ÿ˜ or if I am just being cruel ๐Ÿ‘ฟto myself by denining๐Ÿ˜ˆ how i feel just to protect๐Ÿ‘ฎ myself or just because I am being plain ๐Ÿ‘–meany pants๐Ÿ‘– towards myself.๐Ÿคท.

I dont wanna question it anymore๐Ÿ™Ž. ๐Ÿ’I mean I know without a doubt I can do all those things with women ๐Ÿ‘ญand have no issues ( plus get married๐Ÿ‘ฐ๐Ÿ‘ฐ and have more kids๐Ÿ‘ถ๐Ÿ‘ถ and so on )๐Ÿ’

but with guys๐Ÿคต it has been maken me question๐Ÿคท๐Ÿค”. Finally after all these years I finally had the chance๐Ÿ˜Š to sit down ๐Ÿ™‹๐Ÿคตand think instead of being forced๐Ÿ•ต to do things I didnt want to do๐Ÿ˜ˆ๐Ÿ˜ค. all these questions has me curious.๐Ÿค”

I mean Maybe some of the things people have been asking me ... might be worth to answer and see if that is what it maybe.Maybe the reason why i dont get near a guy๐Ÿคต or close to one is because i look at them as they will hurt me๐Ÿ˜Ÿ like they have before.๐Ÿ˜จ๐Ÿ˜ฑ

I protect men all the time and have been seeing it alot more now then ever.I will admit it is nice because I am standing up for whatever reason is going on at the time. but nevertheless i do find about 50%of guys to actually be nice and sweet and caring . And no offence and to be quite honest I thought guys who were like they didnt exist.

I thought they didnt exist but they do And I wanna know alot more about the guys who are decent and the ones who actually care .I probley wont find ones though like a big family person or who wants commitment so on but thats okay I Can settle for less which is friends.

what i need first is friends and to see how things grow from there. I may be 31 but learning happens all the time . it is not just when your born. it happens all the time the learning process. And I want to learn more. so ๐Ÿ˜ƒ that should be a happy surprise for guys out there to know. I seriously dont know who even watchs me or even wants to get to know me but hey the best part is me venting and working towards my goal even if i dont get a happy ever after. ..... which ... maybe it does or doesn't exist. All's I know is I am ๐Ÿ‘ปSouless and I have me.

So as long as I am ๐Ÿ‘ปSouless and have me then i should be fine I guess... yes I know I questioning everything. BUT HEY ITS NORMAL TO QUESTION EVERYTHING I am just a peanutbutters๐Ÿ‘ถ& cute and Ollie๐Ÿน can confirm it as we play peeping games all the time . ๐Ÿน*peep*๐Ÿน I Found you ollie ๐Ÿ˜„๐Ÿน๐Ÿค— I Love my Ollie. he is so cute. and I love my peanutbutters too ๐Ÿญ๐Ÿ˜„๐Ÿญ๐Ÿค—

I swear Between Ollie (Hearts Medicine Series)

DancingSouless | Heart's Medicine - Time to Heal Platinum Edition

DancingSouless | Heart's Medicine - Hospital Heat Platinum Edition

and Peanutbutters (Angela's Fashion Fever Serie's)

DancingSouless | Fabulous - Angela's Fashion Fever Platinum Edition Lets Play's

they keep me busy trying to find them all the time in the games. ๐Ÿ˜„but thats okay because I love them ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’Ÿ๐Ÿ’Œ๐Ÿ’

I suggest people read the Blogger story so all can understand my feelings better plus watch vlog videos and my poetry videos as well. it could help you a bit.

Here Is A list To All Special Blogg Letters and InBetween Storys (They all Connect To Eachother)

True Blood Ring Link:

DancingSouless Blogger Series

Ep.2 illusions and Confusions | DancingSouless Poetry Corner

If anyone has questions just ask. I dont have problems chit chatting about it just as long as you respect me though.

Like they say talk is cheap and actions speak louder then words. yea well I speak about men and so on but now it is time for truth to see if my mouth is actually gonna follow what my heart๐Ÿ’– has been telling me. I need to start maken my heart๐Ÿ’– and mind๐Ÿ˜„ work together not againest eachother. ๐Ÿคฆ

Which if you known already those 2๐Ÿ–ค๐Ÿ’– battle constantly and I am in constantly Denial๐Ÿ–ค of my feelings( Which I dont like to admit at times). Which Atleast I can admit it now. but you will see a new memory and a New special moment finally happen in Ep.6 Major Glitch Episode Because I finally Had a moment . A moment I didn't expect at all . But it happend.
Btw its nothing bad just to let all know. So no worries.

Just to let you know when I putted that black heart there it means denial of my true feelings inside my heart.My heart is actually ๐Ÿ’› golden and red๐Ÿ’– because i have a heart of gold ( i hear that alot but still dont know what it means) As for red I know I have love in it. so that is what red means and sparkles around it means happyiness๐Ÿ˜„

Anyways so That is why we are starting with Second life first before Bringing it to REAL LIFE . I am just hoping I can jump that hurdle. Which if my feelings are what they seem to be it shouldnt be a problem at all. I guess what we gotta look forward to is the Moment of truth when that day actually finally arrives.

I know For me that it shouldnt be a problem with second life As I did talk to our cast members we have so far. We have casted ( Tommy and Kimberly) All we need Now is Ken, Jimmy ,Jeffery, Jerry, Bob and ( Some extras who would be the family members who arrived into our Youtube family) We are followen it step by step as i wrote it to be.

But I know that you guys๐Ÿคต๐Ÿ’๐Ÿค will be there with me every step of the way so this is gonna be something special for all of us to watch and see together. Anyways I am probley gonna watch a movie on netflix to rest for a bit before I figure what I wanna to do more of today .

I will keep everyone informed of any changes My Angels๐Ÿ˜‡ of mine.


                     ๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’– BIG HUGGIES AND KISSES๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–

                         ๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–Sincerely With Lots Of Love ๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–

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