LIGHTS OUT With more HELL. :( ,which puts my work behind .GRRRRRRR o_o

Well today was another day from hell. About 8 something our lights went out where I LIVED . I swear I dont ever get a da*n break. I mean for f*ck sake. 2 days in a row with something else to worry about.
I already got alot to worry about. My freaken ex didn't have to run my car into the ground before he gave it back to me.

Well I look at it this way.. KARMA is a b*tch so i am sure it will come around and get back at him.
Matter in Fact I think it has hit him since he is in Jail. Thats what he gets for all the LIE'S he has told everyone.Before Anyone Askes me I am not gonna Judge him . I don't know if he is or isn't Guilty. That is up to the judge to decide. But to Be Frank I don't give a da*n About him in the first place.

All I want is my son . I want my son to be home with his mother where he belongs. He doesn't need to be in foster care. He needs to be with me (his mom) .I am taken care of the car problem . it will be fixed.I am just so frustrated. I am trying to work my a** off and sometimes it seems like I have obstacles keep getten in my way. Sometimes I wish I had someone to be here with me . I hate being alone.

But I dont need anymore Drama Eaither so I am gonna be really Picky On my Next Partner. and if they dont like it they can go and fly a kite and stuff it. Because I am NOT going to jump into another relationship just because I feel lonly. If anything that is the worst time to do so .Because your judgement is clouded. it also could cost ya in the end with a bad relationship and a hell of a headach break-up.

Plus I am not just thinking about myself. I am thinking about my son and how he would feel. I am gonna make sure that everything is safe and secure. My son comes first. Everyone else can go f*ck themselves.
I miss my son and I love him so much. he is my world. He will always comes first above everyone else.
That includes myself. he will be before me . I always took care of my kids that way. I always thought about my kids first and myself second. But Ofcourse it goes with it being unnoticed.

Anyways Enough of my blabber mouth. I need to get back to work. I need to make up the time that was lost by the stupied lights being out. Stupid weather!!!

Not only that after the weather passed I stayed at my friends house for a bit to cool off from the lights being out. I wasn't the only one pissed off in this place I lived. everyone was .my one neighbor was cussing up a storm ,slamming doors and went out to go from what I am assuming out to have someone fix our lights.

One thing I noticed where I live is when stuff goes wrong it is always good to have atleast 1 person to be pissed off because when it happends they help the rest of us as a community by helping fix the problem fro all of us. I am telling ya one thing if they didn't do it I would've called th Electric company myself.

I don't play games when it comes to my Electric ,water or anything else. If I am paying someone to live where I am I expect it to be fixed PRONTO. Especially when it comes to my food in my Fridge. Food is
Expensive anymore. Almost everything at the store is almost 5 bucks a piece . I think there hiking prices on purpose anymore. well thats my opinion .

So yeah I want my Electric on pronto because I got lots of food in there.I do care alot you know. There might be people out there that got money up there a** and dont care and throw out food like it is nothing but guess what I aint no millionaire and I aint no rich person. I am below poverty level. And even if i was above it I STILL WOULD CARE.

If I was rich I would give the leftovers to people who were hungry or needed it. I wouldn't throw it out. I would give it to the hungry people who would appreciate it more. And I mean the actually poor people not the imposters that you give them food and then they throw it away while you walk away.

I one time was going to a barns and nobles Book Store in orlando and a guy was begging for food on the outside of the store. Well i just ate out that day and I had leftovers from bennigans. So i gave the dude my leftover big burger with fries and everything. He looked thankful but then when I left i turned around and the guy threw it in the garbage. I was like was a f*cken prick. that is the last time I ever help a poor person.

All that guy wanted was money for his alcohol. he didnt care about the food and now you are gonna ask me how did i know it was that. Well later on when i got out the guy had a big alcohol bottle in his hands drinking it.

See thats the problem those type of people make the REAL poor people look bad. you know the saying if one doesnt it ..it makes it all the rest look bad. well that guy gives The Real poor people a bad reputation.

He wasn't poor he was an alcoholic.well he might have been poor too but still. I still help those in need Still when i can. But I try to make sure the genuine people get the help. You know you can't always know who is or isn't but if you trust your gutt feeling sometimes you can be right.

No one is always 100% right or Wrong.  but anyways that had happen to me about over 5 years ago. but still i wont forget it.

Anyways I am gonna get back to work now. I feel so much better now since i vented out my frustration.
It is always good to blogg when upset or just when I want too.


Sincerely

DancingSouless

CAR BROKE DOWN :( and I finally made it home *hugs pillow * thank goodness I am

So glad to be finally home. My car broke down 3 times on my way home. i just got home about maybe an hour or two a go.  Well while i was broken down i did make a video so people can see what kind of situation i was in. Sorry for not letten you guys know, but my phone is basic so i dont have all the bells and ringers like most.  thought I would let everyone know what was going on.


Sincerely

DancingSouless

A new Release and a Shout out To Number 14th Subscriber !!!! :D

Just Released A new Series Called UPDATE. in this series I give you the latest updates with me and behind the scenes. Check it out :D . When there are times I cant post lots of videos this is another quick way to let you know whats going on with me :D . Also in this first Episode I give A shout out to my number 14th Subscriber :D

My Channel Has reached 14 Subscribers :D !!!! whoo hoooo :D


Check it out here -> https://youtu.be/XmSYIiDwWiU


Sincerely

DancingSouless

Update Episode (Gets you updates faster to me ) This is a new series

MORE VIDEOS AND BOY OH BOY AM I Excited !!!!!

Well I Got something exciting for my Family Life series. I found all my videos of my kids when they were younger and before all the chaos that has been happening from 2012 until now in my life. so I can share it with everyone :D . i am so exicted. Everyone gets to see all 7 of my kids. :D You know before ... well things didn't go well in my other court cases . For those who are new to the channel I am going through a current court battle to get full custody of my son Jigsaw Schultz. As you watch more of my channel you will see more things about my family and my other Series that are important to me. I am a channel with variety. So expect so much new things and adventures :D

I am also working on some gameplay Videos while I release Videos on the family Series. So while you are watching thats series I am hard at work on game videos like i have been for a while. Just got my other video camera to work so it means I can record even more places :D

https://www.youtube.com/user/DancingSouless/featured

Sincerely

DancingSouless

Little Did People know ...this is what I am mixed and Apart of Ethnic wise

Little Did people know on my YouTube Channel or Other places I am affiliated with that I am Mixed Ethnically.

This is what I am mixed with and Apart of German,Italian,Spanish,Irish,Dutch,Swedish,Scottish,Russian,Greek,cherokee indian, and latin

I see Alot of German People Watch my Channel and other places. Right Now I am trying to figure if I should add another Channel Specially for them So they can share The joy of my Channel or not.

But First I gotta figure Where my Channel is going. It has its up and downs. As for me I keep taken classes from (YouTube Academy) and Now Just Joined Pic Monkey Skillshare classes. Anyways I am still Evolving as a channel. Which that is another reason why I made the show project Evolve. It gives you tips but It also shows struggles of a beginning Youtuber. As for me I am still a beginner but I have been with YouTube Since Jan 2007. I became A YouTube Partner ON Nov 20th 2015. Ever since then I have been working even harder then ever .

ONE DAY alls things will fall into place perfectly until then I will work my a** off like no other .But even when I get there to the place where everything falls into place perfectly I will still be working harder then  ever even still then.

Anyways I gotta get back to work.


Sincerely

DancingSouless

Things Feel Unusal Today

I know I gotta go sleep early but I can't something feels off . I don't know why but it does. I hope today goes well. It should I mean I get to see my son. I hope my son is okay. Last Wednesday when I saw him he
sound like he was catching bronchitis Again. I hope not. I hope he is okay. I miss him alot.I can't wait to see him again .

Yesterday I did my errands like usual. So I didn't get to do much of working. But thats okay I will be doing alot of that later tonight after I get home from visitation. Tonight after I got home I went straight Back out. I went and hanged out with my friend . We played GTA 5. I love that game. 3 of my most favorite Games is GTA5 ,TSD2 (Test Drive Unlimited 2), and Mortal Kombat komplete Edition. Ofcourse All PS3 Games.

I love how much fun I have when playen them. I laugh alot and I get all my frustration out in the game.
I so want to buy a ps3 and ps4 . I want to get all my games I lost.  I miss them. I miss how free I felt when I played them. Its like my world was Complete and I had everything I could ever wanted without all the drama bullsh*t.

I have too much drama in my life. I hate it with a passion. I just love (being sarcastic) how people say they want a drama free life or live one . No offence but.... WAKE UP TO REALITY PEOPLE!!!!
There is no SUCH THING AS NO DRAMA!! Anyone who sez they want a drama free Life can go f*ck themselves because it doesn't Exist. If it did then why don't I have one???

And dont go telling me that I bring the drama to me or I deserve it Because I don't. It most likly the people I have been with,or hanged with or whatever. I have gotten rid of those people. but no matter what it seems like Drama finds me. I hate it.

I swear I am like a target to some people.Especially to people who know I am vulnerable they love to play with my head and mental games. I hate those type of people. Those people need there heads messed with to see how they feel like it . Matter in fact I think that is the reason why they do it ... it is because they have been messed with so they think it is funny to play with others mines.

Its f*cked up and they shouldn't do that. They also shouldn't manipulate people. I have been bullied before so I know what it feels like.But  like the saying goes " What goes around comes around"  or "karma will bite them in the a** "  2 sayings I live by. I always watch and usually like the saying goes it happends.

So I don't need to do anything. All I have to do is watch and they will fall like most people do sooner or later.One thing I think people should do when there upset is to go play videos games it helps alot.

Sometimes Going to  counseling isn't enough. sometimes you gotta have friends to help get you through those moments. 1 hour a week at a counselor isn't enough in my book. At least not for me it isn't.

 so sometimes haven a support group like I.E (Family ,friends and ect) it can help alot.
Internet is one way to makes friends if you have anxiety issues or can't talk to someone face to face.
Or haven trouble maken friends. But one thing to always Remember is to becareful on who you are talken to . you don't ever know who you are talken too. Always keep your guard up.

I seem to make friends Alot easier on the internet then Real Life . but in eaither realm I seem to do about the same. I always keep my guard up and I wait to see if they are gonna hurt me or not. I always wait for that other shoe to drop. I dont really trust anyone. And who can trust anyone now adays? Lots of people are out to hurt people everywhere. From jobs (by back stabbing all the way up the ladder) to Friends (who only pretend to be your friends when they want something or when they see you being successful) .

yes I have been hurt alot and in so many ways. I am cautious of all people. but I am learning on how to trust. I am trying to anyway. I follow my gutt feeling. one thing they say you should trust. You can usually tell what people you can trust and not.

I have made alot of trial and errors. And I have found out the hard way alot. I Rather not find out anymore from trial and errors. I would like to skip that process and get success. but Life ain't that way. Nothing is perfect.

It doesn't help when you are growing up and have no Guidance. I didn't have any Guidance growing up and I was always seeking approval from others. To be honest I still find myself looken for Guidance or Approval from others. It is a flaw. But I am working on it.

Everyone has flaws. No one is flawless. I know I got alot of things to work on. Anyways.....
Well I will blogg more laters. It was nice to vent again. I just hope today is gonna be okay. Just something doesn't feel right and I dont know what it is . But I am sure I will find out what it is when I get there or it could be nothing at all. OR it could just be my nerves about Next Wednesday.

Next Wednesday I got Court . So I should find out what is gonna happen in the case. Hopefully all goes well.

Anyways..... Well I am off to maybe update a few more things then to bed.


Sincerely

DancingSouless