LOST AND TIME ZONES with a blonde moment *Slaps my forhead*

Well today my friend From France reminded me about spring clocks going a head an hour. Thank gawd she reminded me . I am already lost enough with all the stuff going on . so for that reminder i am so grateful for it. because if she didnt I wouldve been even more lost but in a time zone . LOL ROFL .Man when i get blonde moments i get them big . LOL ROFL

I know i have been sick and all  but da*n why did i have to lose time double. when i dont feel good i lose track of time because of the medications i am on (which is normal) but now since spring is here it is like i lost it double times .  Well thank goodness it was caught early . Eaither wise People would be looken at me strange. But I know what I would say if they did look at me strange. Hey I got lost in time have you ever ? lol 

I ain't a blonde. But My gawd i get alot of ditzy moments. so much i should be a blonde.  To be quite honest i got a little blonde hair when the sun hits it during the day. you can see it a little. Then when the sunset hits it ..it is auburn then at night fall it is Black  or dark brown. I am like a chameleon.  If you think thats bad During the winter my hair is black or Dark Brown But Summer is changes again. It light brown  , Little blonde when sun hits it and Auburn at sunset. 

My eyes are the same when it comes to changing. My eyes are blue but depending on what i am wearing or if i am wearing make-up on or not will depend on what color my eyes change. If you would like to see any of that just take a look at some of my pictures on my google plus page. 

here is a collage with a few pictures together . you can see in the one picture my eyes look yellow ,and another bright blue like zombie color. -->  https://plus.google.com/107713652919299338105/posts/bMeDsFLTjic

If you would like to see more pictures I do post pictures from time to time. so here is my collection on google plus if you would like to follow
 --> https://plus.google.com/u/0/collection/QmaaAB 


Before you ask Yes I am Gothic. I just don't really wear alot of that black make-up anymore.
I have changed quite abit but I am still the same person. If Anything I have changed for the better not any worser .LOL.

I love dressing up and wearing all sorts of stuff. Only word i could think of to describe was stuff .lol . I always felt strange wearing bright colors but it wasn't until the last 3 years That i begin to wear them again. I think it was because i was scared of people seeing the (one side of me ) that i try to hide so i don't get hurt. 

My history has been people bringing in alot of drama and me being hurt alot by people and later on being traumatized by it. so it is only understandable that I tryed to hide it. But even now even if i tryed to hide my (other side) it wouldn't work people can see right through it .

They see the gentle,loven,warm ,Sensitive, energetic, happy, Easily Excitable about tiny things or strange unusual items (or just about anything ),and  talented person. There is more to that side . I just for the longest time i was told by my family to hide it because people could use it to hurt me .So i did what i was told. 

But now since i seem to open up more about who i am and such i feel so much better then i did before. I dont know how to explain it but I just do.

I do get scared though still but i am always waiting for someone to hurt me again. I am always on the look out for it . So i also got a defensive side as well that trys to protect that innocence side of me. Thats the only word i can really explain that side. I have difficult with explaining sometimes.

Well i am Getten much better. Early this somorning though my throat was gonna try to act up but i took my medication and it stopped it before it could start. so i am glad i got it quick. :D thanks to my doctors though :D .  I am glad we got people who know what there doing . 


Anyways I am gonna try to do some work . Plus try to go back to bootcamp. I am gonna try Keyword. I am taken baby steps . one day at a time. I am not gonna rush myself into it. I dont need a relapse .  If i dont finish my course before the deadline which i haven't a clue when that is .. it is alright at least i tryed. 

Its like I tell all youtubers You gotta take care of yourself first before all others. our health is very important.


Anyways gonna get going .


*Huggies*


Sincerely

DancingSouless

Society And YouTube

Today I watched a video that was recommended to me by Youtube. It was by the creator McJuggerNuggets and the clip (psycho Dad Reacts to one million Juggies).


One thing that all people should know YOUTUBE is a job. Maybe not alot of people understand but it is a job. Take a look at the video I just watched. I have watched some of his videos . he goes through alot of hell.
Some people Just don't understand or don't want to understand.  

It is time to look at what is Unusual and know that just because it is different and is not a 9 to 5 job like most society thinks is normal doesn't mean it isn't a job. Anything or everything can be a job. You yourself just need to open your eyes and see the possibility Just like many others have.

Most YouTubers get flack on this all the time. It is time for change and if our Society doesn't see it then when it becomes more the New norm it will be society problem that they arn't like us. 

We don't force people to see our way but Society always force us to conform to them. Well we are different. we arn't like society. we are Unique and talented individuals that just wants to do what makes us happy. 

Not everyone Has to be the same. We are not Robots.We are people who have lifes Just like everyone does. We all bleed the same color ,we all breathe the same air.  The only difference is We work from our computers and you guys Work a 9 to 5 job dealing with people face to face. We are special Just special in a different way :D

I Just thought since I had some energy and is starting to get  alittle better I would blog and Just give my thoughts and my opinions on this matter. Since One YouTube is my career and I am a partner of theres.  and three I think it is time someone stood up for the Our Community if someone hasn't already.

One thing about me Is I don't like people bullien others or people trying to force others to be like them when they are different. Not everyone has to be the same . I just wish society would see that. But that only can happen when they open there eyes and quite ignoring what is really happening. But that is for them to do not us.


Anyways I am gonna go watch some more videos and try to rest some more. I just hope i get better more quicker because this is driven me crazy not doing my usual videos and stuff. Plus i gotta go back to bootcamp . i already missed like 7 days of it because of being sick. But i am not going back until I am fully recovered. It is one thing i meant about taken care of yourself first .anyways i am gonna go watch some videos and rest. 


*huggies*

Sincerely

DancingSouless

New Rewards for us YouTube Creators. YouTube Creator Rewards

Things TURN For the Worst Scurried back to The ER 2am this morning

Well once again I headed back to the ER and my throat almost closed on me, heart acted up Again , then to make things worse my vertigo settled in as well . Luckily I had Another set of doctors who took a different approach to make sure all things were clear. Had all tests done from head to toe to pin point what was going on.  When I was there it took over 6 hours to get any medication . (From what I overheard The doctors thought certain duties were suppose to be done by the nurses ) it was a clear misunderstanding and
miscommunication . Which wasn't good at all.  But when I got medication  finally  I was fine.

See I can't afford doctors as you can tell. I have had heart issues from the longest time. Born with a heart murmur and now I have blood clots that occasionally  go through my heart. I am not on any medication and nor have I gotten any medications for it. Because by the time I get to the ER the blood clot has already been through and long gone.  The only reason I know I got blood clots is because they have catched it once on a sonogram. but ever since then they haven't been able to detect it unless it happends the moment I am there.
It is one of the situations where unless I get there on time while it happends  they can catch but if it is gone by the time i am there... there is nothing they can do but to treat what they see and observe.
No doctors have YET helped me on this. So it is an on going situation. And lots of visits to the ER.

One reason I keep on going to the ER is because I can't afford a Specialist. I aint on any medication for this so when it happends I have to pray to be alive and hope to gawd that sooner or later I will know what the hell is going on with my body. plus hope I get to the ER on time.  (recently my car broke down again.)

When it rain it pours. when Trauma and drama happenes it always comes in groves in my case :'( .I am tired of having back to back events like this. But like the saying goes " what ever doesn't kill ya it gets you Stronger"

I will admit it is scary but I am only one person and I can only do so much . Along time ago i was on social security for my mental disorder. At the age of 21 they stopped it because I wasn't on medication anymore for it was because my Doctor Said I didn't need anymore. he said I was borderline.

Believe me this has caused me hell from that day until now. I have medical debts that are well over $20,000
Dollars and they are still going up. Of course they keep on trying to cut deals with me and lower it down if i pay it all at once or half of it. But I don't have that kinda money. I can't afford Doctors.  Nor can I even afford my psychologist who is in winter park. But I can afford the low price medications. not the expensive ones.

You can judge me if you want BUT There is not one person who has the right to Judge another person.
Only Yourself can Judge yourself. People seem to love to Judge people without knowing EVERYTHING
About them. Its like A Judge had said in court  " Only you Can Judge yourself not anyone else."
A Judge Can only Judge on what they see, know And what is brought to them to work with when they do there cases. Of course that means Facts,Evidence , or whatever else. But one thing they solely Judge upon is one Factor in all cases no matter what it is. And that is  " Without a reasonable doubt "

Which means that you have to clear Evidence that your case can be proven that is truth in that matter. That no matter which way you look it can't be proven to be wrong or twisted , manipulated ,or Changed So that the other side is right. Basically it means that you cant have a doubt at all.

That is what it means to prove without reasonable doubt. There is no doubt.  I hope that helps explain that.


A Prosecutors Job is to Twist things and bend them to make there side right. Even if it isn't true they lie and twist facts so there side wins. (Thats my opinion and from what I saw) but All Lawyers knows this too and have agreed with me as well. it is common sense. You have to find eachsides weakness and also use there past to Win the case. Sometimes they hurt the people mentally sometimes if it helps there case.

My best example of this is  the movie { I am Sam } . Which is a very touching movie  Or { RainMan } Another great movie.

Another great way to show how prosecutors work is the movie { My cousin vinny}  . you remember there were 2 college kids that get blamed for murder that they didn't even do because some other guys had the same car and looks.Then to make it all worse there confessionals at the jail station. The both hadn't a clue what they were charged for nor what the officers were talken about?  You remember the scene when (Bill ) SAID that he shot the clerk and kept saying it confusingly and then when the sheriff walked out then he understood what was going on .

  not to mention the witnesses did were easily swayed with there confessions. Like the Grits guy who said it took him 5 minutes to cook his grits when in all reality it took all other proud southerners 20 minutes to make there grits. not instant grits because no proud southerner uses them. (from what this movie has said i am not sure if they do or not so not judgement from my side on that eaither way).

If you go into a regular court room and just sit and just watch case after case you can see how these people work and operate.  I have seen both sides. One key factor is they will go mental on you. Mental seems to be easy for them But it always make you wonder if they were ever a BULLY in school . or If maybe they have been bullied themselves. it makes you questions on how Courts work and why certain things are allowed to be used or not.

Another Great Movie is  (Mrs.Doubtfire) Another touching movie


There are alot of Questions in this world that still haven't been answered.


Anyways I am gonna get rest like i have been doing.


*Huggies*


Sincerely

DancingSouless

DancingSouless Episode ER

WENT TO THE ER AGAIN :( been sick for 3 days

Have been sick since March 4th. Went to er and now is on meds. I had a feeling i was gonna be sick on bootcamp days :( . oh well.

Gonna get better and relax. I will get the courses done when i am able to . my health is more important.
I swear to gawd all youtubers are getten sick latly. it is all because of the weather .thats my opinion.

101 lesson for any Youtuber. Take care of yourself first above all others (Meaning health wise)

I got meds for my throat,neck and for pain.

Looks like this was another dozy. I was so hoping not to feel sick on the day of bootcamp but as soon as i woke up BAM i was sick . I should've prepared for it . Well no one knows when it is gonna happen. 

Well anyways i am gonna get rest and not worry so much about YouTube Bootcamp. I will return to it as soon as i feel better. I got court monday . so i need all my rest i can get besides the point. I will let you guys know when i resume Youtube Bootcamp and at least feeling better.

Had to edit . i forget to count from march 4th. sorry guys if i confused you. I am not feeling good still. i just wanted to make sure everyone knows why i am not so active on my youtube page or anywhere else.
Thanks for your understanding


*Huggies*

Sincerely

DancingSouless

VLOGS And A Sneek Peak at Egypt SecondLife part 4 with some information

Well I Released a combo Video. It is a vlog and A game video.


Second Life Egypt part 4 Comming Soon Vlog . You get some information about it and a sneek peek . I also talk about YouTube bootcamp and such.

https://youtu.be/MCxiJ1cmX6A

Its a real treat because you get to see another Special Guest star .You gotta watch my video to see it and hear the informtaion about the project.



Anyways i am gonna get some sleep.


*Huggies*


Sincerely 

DancingSouless