Little Did People know ...this is what I am mixed and Apart of Ethnic wise

Little Did people know on my YouTube Channel or Other places I am affiliated with that I am Mixed Ethnically.

This is what I am mixed with and Apart of German,Italian,Spanish,Irish,Dutch,Swedish,Scottish,Russian,Greek,cherokee indian, and latin

I see Alot of German People Watch my Channel and other places. Right Now I am trying to figure if I should add another Channel Specially for them So they can share The joy of my Channel or not.

But First I gotta figure Where my Channel is going. It has its up and downs. As for me I keep taken classes from (YouTube Academy) and Now Just Joined Pic Monkey Skillshare classes. Anyways I am still Evolving as a channel. Which that is another reason why I made the show project Evolve. It gives you tips but It also shows struggles of a beginning Youtuber. As for me I am still a beginner but I have been with YouTube Since Jan 2007. I became A YouTube Partner ON Nov 20th 2015. Ever since then I have been working even harder then ever .

ONE DAY alls things will fall into place perfectly until then I will work my a** off like no other .But even when I get there to the place where everything falls into place perfectly I will still be working harder then  ever even still then.

Anyways I gotta get back to work.


Sincerely

DancingSouless

Things Feel Unusal Today

I know I gotta go sleep early but I can't something feels off . I don't know why but it does. I hope today goes well. It should I mean I get to see my son. I hope my son is okay. Last Wednesday when I saw him he
sound like he was catching bronchitis Again. I hope not. I hope he is okay. I miss him alot.I can't wait to see him again .

Yesterday I did my errands like usual. So I didn't get to do much of working. But thats okay I will be doing alot of that later tonight after I get home from visitation. Tonight after I got home I went straight Back out. I went and hanged out with my friend . We played GTA 5. I love that game. 3 of my most favorite Games is GTA5 ,TSD2 (Test Drive Unlimited 2), and Mortal Kombat komplete Edition. Ofcourse All PS3 Games.

I love how much fun I have when playen them. I laugh alot and I get all my frustration out in the game.
I so want to buy a ps3 and ps4 . I want to get all my games I lost.  I miss them. I miss how free I felt when I played them. Its like my world was Complete and I had everything I could ever wanted without all the drama bullsh*t.

I have too much drama in my life. I hate it with a passion. I just love (being sarcastic) how people say they want a drama free life or live one . No offence but.... WAKE UP TO REALITY PEOPLE!!!!
There is no SUCH THING AS NO DRAMA!! Anyone who sez they want a drama free Life can go f*ck themselves because it doesn't Exist. If it did then why don't I have one???

And dont go telling me that I bring the drama to me or I deserve it Because I don't. It most likly the people I have been with,or hanged with or whatever. I have gotten rid of those people. but no matter what it seems like Drama finds me. I hate it.

I swear I am like a target to some people.Especially to people who know I am vulnerable they love to play with my head and mental games. I hate those type of people. Those people need there heads messed with to see how they feel like it . Matter in fact I think that is the reason why they do it ... it is because they have been messed with so they think it is funny to play with others mines.

Its f*cked up and they shouldn't do that. They also shouldn't manipulate people. I have been bullied before so I know what it feels like.But  like the saying goes " What goes around comes around"  or "karma will bite them in the a** "  2 sayings I live by. I always watch and usually like the saying goes it happends.

So I don't need to do anything. All I have to do is watch and they will fall like most people do sooner or later.One thing I think people should do when there upset is to go play videos games it helps alot.

Sometimes Going to  counseling isn't enough. sometimes you gotta have friends to help get you through those moments. 1 hour a week at a counselor isn't enough in my book. At least not for me it isn't.

 so sometimes haven a support group like I.E (Family ,friends and ect) it can help alot.
Internet is one way to makes friends if you have anxiety issues or can't talk to someone face to face.
Or haven trouble maken friends. But one thing to always Remember is to becareful on who you are talken to . you don't ever know who you are talken too. Always keep your guard up.

I seem to make friends Alot easier on the internet then Real Life . but in eaither realm I seem to do about the same. I always keep my guard up and I wait to see if they are gonna hurt me or not. I always wait for that other shoe to drop. I dont really trust anyone. And who can trust anyone now adays? Lots of people are out to hurt people everywhere. From jobs (by back stabbing all the way up the ladder) to Friends (who only pretend to be your friends when they want something or when they see you being successful) .

yes I have been hurt alot and in so many ways. I am cautious of all people. but I am learning on how to trust. I am trying to anyway. I follow my gutt feeling. one thing they say you should trust. You can usually tell what people you can trust and not.

I have made alot of trial and errors. And I have found out the hard way alot. I Rather not find out anymore from trial and errors. I would like to skip that process and get success. but Life ain't that way. Nothing is perfect.

It doesn't help when you are growing up and have no Guidance. I didn't have any Guidance growing up and I was always seeking approval from others. To be honest I still find myself looken for Guidance or Approval from others. It is a flaw. But I am working on it.

Everyone has flaws. No one is flawless. I know I got alot of things to work on. Anyways.....
Well I will blogg more laters. It was nice to vent again. I just hope today is gonna be okay. Just something doesn't feel right and I dont know what it is . But I am sure I will find out what it is when I get there or it could be nothing at all. OR it could just be my nerves about Next Wednesday.

Next Wednesday I got Court . So I should find out what is gonna happen in the case. Hopefully all goes well.

Anyways..... Well I am off to maybe update a few more things then to bed.


Sincerely

DancingSouless

Men Can Cry

I was just thinking of Alice In Wonderland and then I decided to watch a specific clip -->  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=di7dZwidXZU

Then My thoughts begin to wonder and to things I have heard in my life. This clip reminded me so much of the things i have heard growing up. About Not to cry and such. I am a woman and Even I got told in my family not to cry. Even now sometimes i try to still hide my tears because I think it shows my weakness.

I was always taught not to cry because it shows a sign of Weakness and that someone can use it againest you to hurt you. Which i have seen it happen to me over and over again. But I Hate hiding my feelings.

Anyways  When your world feels like a block and you feel like you a hit the wall. sometimes it is good to cry because in the end you get the Result of relief. 

If people  tell you not to cry ... tell them to go Fly A kite! Like i say all the time. I tell people go fly a kite all the time when they get me mad. because it is normal to cry and not only that it is a releases all that bothers you . I know sometimes when i cry it makes me feel better.  

You can be  a women or man to cry. there is not rule on who can and can't cry. it is just all bullsh*t when a person tells there sons not to cry because there a man. Thats one thing i won't tolerate.

A guy can cry too. Men have feelings too . Crying is not only just for women. Men can cry too. it is good to show emotion and not to bottle it up inside. I should know i have been there and done it . I am sure many others have as well.

I have teached all my kids that it is alright to cry. I won't let others say otherwise. My kids are entitled to there emotions just like I am. Anyone who can't cry is not human or is a robot. or Worse there heartless ,cold a**holes. There now i feel better i said that *nods head *

Anyways I just wanted to share that with you guys. Back to editing .


Sincerely

DancingSouless

Tirelessly Working Around The Clock

My Gawd everytime I turn around I have something else to do or update or Project to work on.
I think I am gonna make a list for Everyday Task So I can work more efficient.

It seems like somedays I Forget certain tasks that I was suppose to do the day before.
But what id comes down to is I record so much  so there is alot of editing which puts
most of my other projects behind a bit. Which is fine Because I will catch it up.

I aint in no race or anything . it is just sometimes I wish I wouldnt be so forgetfull sometimes.
Well if i was one of snow whites dwarfs I would have to be Dopey. I swear I can be so forgetfull
but so cute. But even in the end I still win :D

Eh what Am I Saying We all have forgetful days. I am just dont want to land up like Denny Crane from
Boston Legal. I love that show. I have a lot of favorite shows. That show was funny as hell and great show.
Sometimes I feel like Alan Shore and sometimes Like Denny. I dont know why but I do. I feel Like certain
Days I could push the Envelope like Denny and be a smart a** like Alan. Technically I could be the whole cast of the show which as much personalitys I have.

Everyday it feels like I am someone new. Not in a bad way. It is like a refresher or something. it is so hard to explain. Alls I know is ... I dont know... but ... I dont know maybe with all the stress I have been Under with court has finally started to mentally hurt me a bit. Or it has and I am finally admitting it to myself.

I don't Know I just want this court battle over with as soon as possible. I have been in the court room since 2005 . By Now I Should be a Family Law Attorney with as much knowledge I have learned over the years.
Someone can have the same amount of knowledge as an Attorney and didnt ever go to Law school.

You Don't need to be a Smart Harvard Graduate to learn what they know or have to go to school to know what they know. Just being a person and going to the courtroom alot is all you need. Divorce,Custody Battles , DCF Battle or anything can bring you into a courtroom . If you walk in there with no knowledge of court stuff you will certainly walk out with more knowledge after you are done with your case. I am telling you I certainly learned alot.

But not just by going to court, through courts shows,cops shows, Reality shows that deals with Courts and officers.Just sitting in a court room and watching other cases go before yours, Watchen  Attorneys Fight in front of a judge (Which is rare) in real court they rarly fight. And if they do sometimes the judge gets frustrated (what you dont see on t.v) .

Perfect Example The Movie (My Cousin Vinny)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mSw9_bsTzkU

Do you really think you could get away with talken back to a Judge? Hell NO! They would lock you up faster then you could speak a word. I have watched a court Case Right in front of mine where he threaten the judge to Run with his kid out of state. The judge looked at him and told him that he better not or he was look at Jail time . Not to mention that there would be police at the border to catch the dude.

Some people just dont seem to think . You don't ever threaten a judge. You Don't ever disrespect a judge No matter how pissed you get. Because in the long run it just gets you more into trouble. Hopefully into begin with you didn't do something because if you did then you just made your case more worser. And well
by that time you might as well give up because the courtroom will look at you in disgust.

Any hope you had before is gone by the time you made whatever remark you made. So was it worth it in your case? Most likly not because you just made it harder on yourself.

I seriously Don't understand why some people act up in a court room.If anything it should be a room you FEAR the most. Because in the end the judge makes all the decisions. To me A courtroom Would make anyone feel helpless Unless there a Lawyer .

The judges can be quite scary sometimes. No matter what case you have.One thing to Remember Dont ever get a Judge pissed off. I have seen that side of them. it doesn't look good at all. If you wondering I didn't get the Judge mad My Ex Husband did. Boy did he ever get let into by the Judge.

Lets just put into a short sentence He disrespected a judge. something you dont do.  but anyways that was a long time ago.  Anyways....  This is one thing i haven't seen in court happend -->  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hu8tX2BAD1k

If that ever happend I think I would laugh my a** off. well at least try not to because I wouldnt want to interrupt the court room. but if they laughed you better da*n well believe i would be laughing.

Anyways way off subject.... lol . That is so me I keep on changing subjects and then have to refresh my memory on what i was talken about .Hence the Blonde moments i have to many times.Well thank gawd I dont got mad cow lol. Like Denny would keep ranting about in most of the seasons until the last ones when things got very serious with Denny.

And No I am not blonde but my gawd sometimes I shouldve been a blonde with as much my Ditzyness I have. Although I do got some blond in it when the sun hits it. During the Winter and nightfall my Hair looks black and at sunset my hair turns Auburn . If you think that weird my eyes changes colors too. I am like a chameleon.

Anyways.... I gonna get going . I will blogg more tomorrow unless i get distracted again. *throws hands up into air* It happends sometimes.


Sincerely

DancingSouless

Recap Of this Week With Videos

HELLO EVERYONE !!!!

Here's the recap for this Week.

Well I got all 4 videos released that I wanted to get released this week. Now I gotta get the others dones so they can be released a.s.a.p . So here are the ones that were released this week and there titles. 

1. DancingSouless Vlog Episode 3 Jack Frost And whats lurking in the dark 
2. DancingSouless Vlog Episode 4 Excitement Comments
3. DancingSouless Vlog Episode 4.5 SpecialThank you Subscribers
4. Evolve Episode 3 OVERLOAD Tips!!!. Thats the recap for this week. There will be even more released as we go along. :D I hope you enjoy the ones I released so far. There is so much more to come to this channel :D .


Lots and lots of work to be done and I am only getten started :D



Sincerely

DancingSouless

DancingSouless Vlog Episode 4.5 SpecialThank you Subscribers

Evolve Episode 3 OVERLOAD Tips!!!